I have been discussing about my future a lot more these few days, especially since the release of results is drawing much nearer and I am currently working my first job as a Teacher Aide. Hell, the future is pretty freaking scary and to think about commitments and finances really stress me out. The struggle between passion and practicality becomes much more real at this juncture of my life because I truly cannot afford to study for fun. The fact that certain courses aren't available in Singapore also makes deciding a lot worse.
Reflecting on my work habits the past few years since Cedar, I was telling my mum that I think I am a workaholic. She replied with an "Of course" before continuing with her observation that my entire family are quite the workaholics, especially my dad, brother and me. As much as I don't want to admit it, the similarities between us are pretty uncanny; both physically and behaviourally. I really hope this will work to my advantage especially in the workplace and not take too much of a toll on me. As much as I want to advance in the career path that I have chosen, my ultimate dream is still to be a great mother to my (in sha Allah) kids and a mithali wife to my (in sha Allah) husband. Okay la I sound pretty pretentious and really hopeful at this moment but hey it's my dream.
The next few months will truly be one hell of a ride and I pray that He grants me the strength and patience to pull through this, as well as the guidance on how I should embark on my future.
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